tired of drama

I get tired of this confusion
tired of the pain.
tired of getting my tears dropped,
tired of acted
I'm tired of the emptiness from hearts I've parted from.
Tired of wishing for more but not knowing which way to turn
and sometimes too scared to look back.
To let go completely of yesterday,
and grasp a hold on the hope of tomorrow.
A hope that if tomorrow gets here, it won't be like yesterday.
maybe this is a test for me or
maybe this is the payment
for my price of my mistakes before
life must be alive,
now, i'll try to change.. and try to forget all of this game..
and wont look the past,
be a new in personality...
and dont you try to stop me.
but why it doesnt worked?
even a lil bit?
i'm emo? am i? no!
I do wish I can die
but I know death is not the solution to everything I hear,
right now, i'm give up! give up!
i dont care everything around me,
and.....